I Miss Me - OUAS March 15h

Good morning everyone. 

I hope this post find you well. 

I am here to show you my DT example for the March 15th challenge at Once Upon A...Sketch. 

Here is this fortnight's challenge. 

March 15th Challenge

Journalling Criteria:   Finish this line "I miss...". 

 Tell us about someone you are missing right now and why. Your journalling can be as long or as little as you like, but we want to hear all about someone you are missing!

Ideas for journalling: missing time alone with your partner, missing your old self, missing your children because they are off to school, university or living away from you, missing your children being young, missing a friend you have not seen in a while, someone in another country, someone that has passed away, a mentor whose advice you could use, a relative you wish you lived closer to, someone you regret having an argument with, missing a pet

Remember that you are allowed to also create a card or altered project based on this sketch and theme and instead of the journalling criteria you need to use a quote. 

YOU MUST combine our journalling criteria with this sketch..

I can think of a million people I miss right now. Some that have passed away, some that are overseas, some I do not see anymore. But you know what? Without sounding selfish..I miss my old self. I miss ME. I miss being the happy person I was. I looked through ALL my pictures trying to find a picture of me at a happy time. I came across this one and my heart just warmed up instantly as it does every time I see this rare photo of Maria and I. She was my dream come true. No one ever really knows if they can have children, but when she was conceived so easily and then having her in my arms ...well this was the epitome of happiness for me.  I was 28 years old. So ready to be a mum. So happy, so together, so certain and almost a little arrogant because I was a confident mother. This was a high point in my life. 

When I look at this picture, I remember happiness. I remember the excitement of having a baby of my own. New prams, new baby clothes, new experiences. Everything was new. Everything was hopeful...and Ioanna followed 2 years after and all that was doubled. The world was perfect. Everything was going to plan. 

And of course, the last 2 years have been so unbelievably opposite to that. I would have NEVER guessed I would be where I am today, 5 years after this photo was taken. I don't think I am asking for too much. But every day that passes is SO different. Some days I am OK. Most days I am just existing..pinning all my hopes on a child, a pregnancy that might never be realised. That is SO dangerous. But ..I will not pretend to not feel what I feel, and I will not sit here and act like its all Ok..whatever happens , happens.. what will be will be, etc etc. No. That is unrealistic and it is dishonest when  my whole entire being is focused on one and only thing. That is a bit of a cop out ..a bit of giving up. That is not fighting enough for what you want. And I want this so badly.. I will not give up. But ..every day..I lose hope. Maybe..not lose hope, but become all that much more isolated from everything and everyone. 

Anyway..such a sad story to go with these bright and happy papers isnt it ? LOL! 

The papers and other embellishments were sent to me by Handmade By Suzanne in my monthly DT kit, and they are the new Bo Bunny collection Ambrosia 

Here are some close ups..

** Th different pieces of paper you can see sewn together are all the off cuts from papers I have used previously in this collection. I try to maximize the use of  every little bit I have in my DT kit. 

**To create depth and layering, I use 3D square dots and layer die cuts and other embellishments on top of each other, overlapping. 

** The papers from Ambrosia have gorgeous printed designs on them that lend themselves to fussy cutting . One more way to extend the use of the papers. 

*The  circular butterfly embellishment is actually a sticker from the sticker sheet. I punched a tiny bit larger piece of matching paper with a scalloped punch to create a contrast. 

** I am really into hidden journalling these days. I have a lot to say and it doesn't fit at the front anymore. In this instance I backed the photo on some die cut papers and glued it down one side so that it can be listed to reveal the writing. 

**Again here I used cut offs from other papers you would normally throw out and created a nice detail to the corner. 

**  I also punched the border of the maroon paper with a Martha Stewart edge punch. 

Materials List

Bo Bunny: Ambrosia papers

Bo Bunny: Ambrosia buttons, combo stickers , Noteworthy die cuts and tags, Jewels - Self Adhesive Rhinestones and Pearls. 

My Favorite Things: doily die - Dainty Doily Duo 

  Green Tara: Mini Roses - Ivory and White

Martha Stewart Edger Punch: Traditional Scallop

Bye for now everyone :)