I am here and I am OK! I am just blown away by the amount of comments left in my last post. Where did you all come from? How did you accept me in your life as you did? The words you all spoke were just incredible and heart felt . Quitting everything was the hardest thing I ever had to do on this sort of level because ..I just DONT do that. I am not like that. I dont leave things like that. In many ways, I felt as though I was letting all of you down by 'going away' but then as your comments and emails started pouring through I really felt your understanding and all of you told me something so incredible.... " we are here and we will be waiting when you get back" . To be honest when I made the decision to walk away I had NO plans of ever coming back. And NO..I still have not scrapped in a month...but just today...I started hearing some of your words in my head. And I realised that I held on to what you all said '..we will wait for you' which kind of inclines me to come back here. Mind you I still have NO desire to scrap LOL! But at least I do not feel sick at the thought of paper. I have even just started to look at a couple of things on my dusty desk without feeling sick and anxious. .LOL!
I am not sure if it makes sense. I like to think I am a genuine person, thats why sometimes some of the things I say might not make too much sense, because nothing I say is premeditated. I speak straight from the heart. And this is what I am doing now. I just logged on and felt like posting here.
I have hardly been near a computer for a long time. And you know..I didnt miss it at all. LOL! Other than Once Upon A..Sketch and a couple of visits here and there I have ignored the internet very very much. And it has been OK!.
But I felt the need to tell you that I am in a VERY happy place at the moment. I am good..I wish..oh how I wish I could just tell you the BEST news I have received in a long time...but you know how these things go..you can't reveal anything even though you are dying to scream it to the world. Just know that I am VERY happy and I should be able to tell you all by the end of August...how painful to have to wait that long..LOL! But I hope it all works out .
Anyway...thank you all so so very much. Again..I repeat my self...I do not know where you all came from but sometimes I think how wonderful life would be if I could live close to ALL of you. Imagine having you all as my friends in real life. You are just incredible and I am so lucky.
OK OK..I am going. Am starting to feel a little anxious now so I am NOT just going to ignore that feeling like I used to but succumb to it.
Before I go, I wanted to show you a layout that I created AGES ago. Just before everything. It is for my friend Wendy's challenge blog Bird Is The Word and this was the last layout I created for Bird Is The Word as part of the DT. Wendy is yet another person I am going to call a friend for a long time. I only met her because I was subscribing to her kits at Tidbitz In Time and then she accepted me to be on the Design Team at Bird Is The Word and the rest is history. I had a strong attachment to BITW..and to Wendy and I dont think I am officially off that team because Wendy wouldnt really let me go and I couldnt leave..LOL!
So anyway..the challenge is still going so you have time to enter. You need to use the word Today in your title or journalling. I just thought that the message on this layout is so fitting for how I feel right this moment, because indeed..TODAY is BETTER than YESTERDAY. And it always is. But sometimes its hard to see that.
I have not created anything since then ...so I am not sure when I will be back.
So until the next time we talk..its goodbye from (happy) me.